The answer is me. Yep, sobering isn’t it?
Tomorrow is Palm
Sunday. It is the day we remember Jesus’
entry into Jerusalem to a hero’s welcome.
It is amazing how quickly the tide turned. One day, they wanted him to be king and the
next, crucified. On this Sunday, we will read the Lord’s Passion. We will hear the story of how our King was welcomed
with pomp and circumstance only to be crucified a few days later at Calvary. What Happened?
I’ve heard this
story since I was little. As a kid, I
looked at it much like a bad guy/good guy situation. The people killing Jesus were the bad guys. If I were there, I would be fighting
them. I would be leading the charge to
protect Jesus. I would be among the good
guys. With my child-like innocence, it
is easy to lump myself in with the good guys because of the simple fact that I
love Jesus. I wouldn’t want to see him
get hurt. Yep, my child-like self had no
doubt that I was a good guy.
Hearing this story
as an adult is totally different. How
can a crowd turn like that? How can you
love Jesus one minute and hate him the next?
As I ponder these questions, I can’t help but wonder what role I would
really play in the story. It seemed that
few people actually knew who Jesus was and fewer were willing to stand up and
protect Him. Would I really be as bold
as I imagine? Or would I silently watch
with the rest of the crowd? Or, perhaps,
I would be chanting for his death in the heat of the moment.
As we see in this gospel
story, it was the Sanhedrin that led the people to distrust and reject Jesus.
They were the typical human beings. They were too proud to acknowledge Jesus'
authority. They were too self-involved to look at the bigger picture. They were
so involved with going through the motions of the law that they missed the
spirit of the law that was embodied in their midst. They didn't want to give up
their power. They didn't want to become humble. They would not open their
hearts to God's love. Pride and selfishness is what drove them to influence the
people and have Jesus nailed to a cross and die. And these are the same traits I struggle with
every day. When I allow myself to take
credit when I shouldn't, when I’m too proud to admit a mistake, or when take
control when I should put it on the altar, then up goes the wall between me and
my God. I become one of those people 2000 years ago, standing in the crowd,
chanting for Jesus to be crucified.
Oh, Father, forgive me for
who I am. Show me the places in my life
that are not filled with your light. Give
me the courage to empty myself completely to your love. Grant me the grace to see the face Christ in
those around me. You are all that I
crave. My desire rests in your
will. Make me worthy of the life Christ
won for me at Calvary. All glory and
honor belong to you, forever and ever. Amen.